Most of our life we think of as times of before and after. Before and after college, high school, marriage and so on. For much of my adult life I was in a state of before and after my father's death or the births of my girls. Now I have a new one. One I am determined to leave behind...before and after cancer.
Right now I am celebrating year 50 with my oldest friend. Enjoying our time together and thinking about my own rapidly approaching. I want a new b and f so now it will be before and after 50. I thought about it in terms of leaving my 40's behind because the last half of that decade has been tough health wise, but I still learned and enjoyed and loved so much I don't want to regret a minute of it. But 50, well that's a landmark. So for now I will be happy to start the rest of my life right away, knowing that the growth I made on each of those roughly 18,262 days was worth it and brought me to where I am and who I am right now. I don't regret a minute, a heartache, a disappointment, a joy, a love, a success because each one was necessary for this time and place to be so perfect.